so recently the band auditioned for a worship band position at a church in coppell texas. this church is doing something really outside of the box in that they are not simply looking for a worship leader to step in and become a staff member, they are looking for a traveling worship band to step in and on the sundays that they are in town, lead worship at the church. the church is offering a stable home base for the band they decide on and an annual salary to help get the band off of the ground. its kind of an amazing gig for the band that gets the offer. 

now, this is where my human nature steps in and i realize that i have nothing left to do nothing short of hitting my knees. you see, our “audition sunday” was this past sunday and the church is making a decision by the end of the month. so, we are just left to wait on the phone call that gives us a yes or a no. 

BUT, there is something painfully beautiful in the waiting process if you can find it. its something i don’t know that i have ever sat back and sought out before in any other decision i have made. its the moment that you have an encounter with the Lord that makes you ask the question, “is this what You want for me?” for so long in my life when i run across situations that i need make a decision on or i am forced to wait for a decision to be made, if that decision ever went in my favor i automatically said “yes”. my thinking was, “why would God give me the opportunity to do something else for Him if He didn’t want me to do it?”…was my mentality. this time around, i am taking a different approach. i am taking the approach of seeking Him first in this decision and not waiting for another man to do the searching and decision making for me. i am crying out asking the Lord to reveal that beautiful spot in my future where my plans match up with His plans and creates something from it. 

what this looks like is this…as i wait for the decision making call that i should be getting in the next two weeks, i am spending a lot of time in prayer and in scripture. really just trying to ask God to give me direction and for Him to place on my heart whether or not He wants me to take the offer, if it is even there. you see, i only want to move if i feel Him leading me and pushing me. i know that He is in control and His will, will be done regardless of what i decide but i want to make sure that i am not to quick to jump on any ole thing anymore that is “cool” or “new”. 

basically, there is a song called crazy that my good friends of mercyme wrote that says this:

i have not been called, to the wisdom of this world
but to a God, who’s calling out to me.
and even though the world may think, i’m losing touch with reality,
it would be crazy, to chose this world, over eternity.

to listen to the whole song click this: crazy

the point of that is this, i have settled for too long with the “wisdom of this world” that i have so often overlooked the God who is calling out to me. well, not this time. i am running to the God that is calling out to me as crazy as that may be to some people. but i am 100% willing and open to saying no to something that could be a great opportunity. because really, why would i chose this world, over eternity?